It’s my fault

I was looking for a gray-silver shoe, as usual I was looking for something for myself with an unconscious selfishness...I didn't harm anyone materially...and spiritually it was a lot, as long as they didn't mess with me there was none, for me to mess with them they had to enter my area in a weak and not very good-intentioned way...

We entered a mall, I was just looking for a gray-silver shoe...I couldn't find it exactly the way I wanted, he was walking in my area too, he was gathering his children in his own way, I said to him, I came to look for this gray-silver shoe alone, you knew it, why did you come to me with this child, you know, I'm not me until I find it...Now I had to deal with all of you while I was saying I'll find it, go away, wait for me, somewhere I can find you, he didn't listen to me, but he was nodding his head as if he was listening, the crowd didn't disperse, everyone disappeared somewhere and left.. I was confused.. Just as I had decided to gather everything that was scattered and put it somewhere to find the grey-silver shoe that I had been looking for in the same places I don't know how many times, suddenly the railings in the part of the mall where we were lowered, I guess he just jumped into that gap, we made eye contact with the other one who was trying to gather the crowd that seemed like the extra on the other side of me.. he jumped from there, yes he jumped and he said he is dead... I looked into his eyes for the first time.. this is my fault!! I said...